I did it!

My surgery is done, and what a tough road it was. I arrived at the hospital on Thursday morning. I don't think I had ever been so scared in my entire life. I arrived at 7:45 am and I was in surgery by 10:00am. The whole time I was waiting, I just kept saying, I can't believe today is the day! After my surgeon marked me up, I said goodbye to Ryan and my mom. It was very emotional for me. My biggest fear going into this was not waking up. I cried so so hard but wow, the nurses where so incredibly sweet and comforting. They gave me something to calm my nerves. The last thing I remember was being wheeled into the OR, someone  (wasn't sure who)  asked me who my favorite band is. I said, "OMG I LOVE FLEETWOOD MAC."  I was so fucked up! I feel asleep listening to the first line of "The Chain." What a great way to go into your first surgery right?

Then the fun stuff happened, NOT. I wake up and from that moment on I felt like I was on a drug detox. I puked, cried, passed out like 6 times, had to pee in front of strangers! It was the hardest thing I have probably ever been through. I stayed at the hospital 2 and a half days. I was under for 7 and a half hours and the nurses I had the night after my surgery kept pumping me with morphine. I have never had anything that harsh in my system and it was a shock! They drugs didn't agree with me what so ever. Also, they kept giving me fluids, 8 LITERS!! I cannot explain how bloated I am. So, not sure why this all happened but my surgeon was not a happy camper when he came to see me the next day. He wasn't happy with all of the drugs and fluids. So, since yesterday afternoon I've been on nothing but tylenol. I feel GREAT! I mean, great for have just coming out of a 7 and a half hour surgery. I am very sore, cannot stand up straight, can't sleep comfortably, can't shower for about 2 weeks probably. I am so dirty and smelly. BUT. I am incredibly grateful. I am grateful I was able to get this surgery after my 130 weight loss. I am so grateful for my family, Ryan and Ryan's family for being there for me even when it got tough. I love everyone and cannot thank you all enough for all of your support. Having so many of you rooting for me made this terrible experience a great one. I am so grateful and cannot wait to just feel better !!! Before and after pictures to follow, as soon as I am not so bloated :)