I had to cancel my appointment with the plastic surgeon last month, I am going Wednesday and then a different one Monday just so I have two opinions. I have to make something very clear. I am not getting surgery to look a certain way or look perfect or something crazy like that. It is to the point were my extra skin is causing issues. My lower back is always killing me and as yucky as it is, the extra skin gets in the way. I can no longer jog because it is so uncomfortable. Im not looking to achieve a wash board stomach and perfect breast. I just want to look somewhat normal and be comfortable. I worked so hard and did this all on my own. I feel like I deserve to finally be happy with myself. Several people have given me for lack of a better word, shit, for wanting to get a tummy tuck and my breast done but guess what? You have no idea what this feel like, so you don't deserve an opinion. Until you've lost 130 pounds by yourself can you tell me what you think is best for me. Moving on...
I really don't feel like getting into my problems at the moment, I will just say this. Stress and anxiety are in full force and it is negatively impacting my weight right now and how I feel. I feel like a brick, heavy and gross. I just can't wrap my head around the things going on in my life right now. I have never felt more disappointed and let down by a bunch of different situations at once like this. I feel out of control. So much is effecting me right now, I try to let things not bother me but, it's come to be too much. I want nothing more than a peaceful and drama-free life. Hopefully this will all pass soon and I can FINALLY finish what I started. I am soooo close!!!!!
